DEAR JOHN,

[dante]

this is an OOC game. you write a letter, doesn't matter how long or what the content is(picture, bullet points, paragraphs) just write it to someone. anyone. its like a rant thread, really.

keep it anonymous though, mmkay?

[zadyr]

DEAR JOHN,

[/b] i know i've said this a million times, but i can't stress it enough. i never meant to hurt you, i never meant to lie. i just... couldn't tell you the truth. i was scared, baby i was afraid you'd take it the wrong way and i'd lose you. i need you, sweetheart. with all my heart i can say this because i mean it. and i'll never be able to forgive myself for what i did and i know it's silly, and its just one more thing for my muddled brain to stress about... but i won't. i can't. even if you tell me otherwise, i know it hurt you. lies hurt.

i guess i should be thankful that what he did didn't fuck this all up. but i'm not. its selfish of me, but i can't be happy with the thought of never having the same relationship we had before him. and like, what we have now is amazing... but its different. we don't talk as much, i don't feel as close. and baby, i want you back. even if its not love anymore, i want to hold you and call you mine and never let you go. you joke and laugh, but i know you don't feel the same. it hurts. badly, does it hurt. but i can't force you to love something that you can't. its not fair. its selfish.

please if you ever read this, don't feel bad. i brought this down on myself and for the last two years i've been just waiting for the other show to drop. i just want you to know, i'm sorry. even though sorry doesn't cut it, i just want you to bear with me and give me the chance that you would have before he told you all my lies. its a stretch, but i think if you can love me and need me before, you can still feel the same somewhere.

i love you. i will say that until my death, and mean every syllable. i love you sweetheart. you're my best friend, you're my soul mate. you're everything and more to me. please if you can't love me, just don't ever leave me. i'll be happy with anything i can get so long as you don't turn away. i'll be everything and more for you, i'll do anything you ask. i swear on everything that is holy and loved, i will never lie to you again. please take my word for this, i would have told you... but i was scared.

with all my love,
your knight in shining armor.


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[elLIE]

DEAR JOHN(S),

I think you're both fakes. Yeah, you're all sweet, but both of you are fucking worthless fakes. Stop trying to be the goddamned heros, you're too fucking optimistic for your own good. Give it a rest. I used to think you guys were a tad inspiring, I fucking admired you... Why? I slap myself over it now. Both of you are boring hypocrites. Seriously, you try to be so riteous it makes you dull. I don't care if you want to change the world. You're still fakes to me. Maybe you'll figure that out and change yourselves a bit before the world. Seriously, you act like you've LIVED, yeah, whatever your mom was an alcoholic? What elese you got? I own you on experience, don't fuck with me, or go trying to change the WORLD if you have NO clue. Get a grip on yourself, we all know it's just another form of trying to get attention.

I hate your niceness, you take it too far.
You're rarely funny.
Yes, I've met more band people than you have, more times, you're not the shit, get over it.
You have no reasons for your idolism.
You think you're individuals and so different... I laugh when you're not looking. Seriously, you COPIED someone's tattoo? Hooowww original.

I don't miss you anymore, stay in Orlando. I hate you both. I wish I could watch you burn.

Living my life with the introverted,
cynical,
grotesque,
better-than-you'll-ever-be people I adore,
-Ellie.

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[zadyr]

DEAR JOHN,

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